fawning (2025)

an eco-fem performance in re-patterning the fourth nervous system response between fight, flight, freeze. documentation by @dor.ottya on Kumeyaay land.

the deer response is my favorite black hole. I’ll give you affection for protection. don’t hurt me, my toy legs can open. I survive through desire. an arched back works, no suspection. twist till I spiral, be what you need. loading the dishwater with tummy tucked. ass out, good housewife. porn eyes watch me sleeping on grass. to prey, looks like fuck her right there. harmony means wake up to another world where what is free does not harm me, i’m praying.

X-POLLINATION (2025)

a eco-queer performance study with with Koki’o ‘ula (Hawaiian red hibiscus) and nalo meli (honey bee) on Honaunau, Island of Hawai’i.

The performance navigates mana (energy rich centers) in the body as access points for re-narrating the social expectations of fertility. I use the the anatomy of hibiscus flower to demonstrate genital in-betweenness in third gender populations (māhū), with stamen and petals as refectory to the spiritual inheritance of carrying both phallus and yoni. The performance occurs after being gifted a bee sting in between the left big toe and second toe (Tai Chong, Liver 3 point in Traditional Chinese Medicine, used for flushing emotional and digestive constipation).

BODY IS LAND [BACK]

zip tied under the 5 / 805 / 15 freeway on unceded Kumeyaay — photography by @dor.ottya

More cement than dirt here. Cars sound like lady bugs if my eyes are 1% open. Throat is a highway, no tolls. Hit the end repeatedly and it’s an (American) fever dream. Call it spirit bondage. Tuck my organs back in. No, the ones belonging to someone’s version of Adam and Eve. Scrub to cut, erase

NUDE RUNWAY (2025)

LA Art Week at Hannah Hoffman Gallery — @puppiespuppiesjade x @kikokostadinov

Is this visible enough. let me walk for you. let me serve you. let me make you feel sooo good. I bet you love incognito window. bookmark me. download me. chase me. but don’t fight for me. my body is land, made to take. made for online. love me as the one percent you will never see in real life. and let your one percent know, we are coming.

GIRL VOICE (2025)

performance laboratory in Brooklyn, New York — photography by @nikokokiniko

I wonder about the microphone performing as a princess wand. she-cock. antennae to the other(side). but also the cum-cage, enforcing a tongue to stick out so to not speak. supremacy says, good girl. I show teeth. This work loops live sound currents channeled from land, back into matrix. to re-enchant with vibrations of fae forests, sirens of the deep, mourning of tr(ancestors), and shamans before — thank you.